Hold Fast...

Nah! I didn't mean to hold a fast as in some ceremonial day with nothin to eat... I meant to hang on... hang on to what was once a little dream. The dream of a little school boy going to a place none of his classmates even cared to look up in the 'Atlas' for his age. And then there is, all of a sudden, this urge to catch it. It comes as a reason for a change... and then it becomes 'The reason'!

Today, there's a fire in the belly that has subdued some values (though they were alwayz questionable at the Receiving end too...). Only feel bad for whoever believed things will take the right stream there-on. Never was this eagerness to hold fast to dreams been so until it came as the 'A reason'. Atleast it's made its presence felt. It's finally broken the shackles and comeout of that corner where it was 'burried' for the sake of others, asking for it's righteous place in life.

Ain't it amazing??? that they spring up at the least expected times?  Reminds me of a beautiful poem by Louise Driscoll I'd by-hearted in school, though until today I'd forgotten almost all of it except for the first line. Here's a few more...

Hold fast your dreams!
Within your heart
Keep one still, secret spot
Where dreams may go,
And, sheltered so,
May thrive and grow
Where doubt and fear are not.
O keep a place apart,
Within your heart,
For little dreams to go!

finding solace...

How does it feel when you are "made to feel lonely"? when your soulmate has not wanted to talk to you? when you feel that the world doesn't really care whether you are, or not...? The last few days have been giving me something of such a hysteria.

A few actions have hurt someone so much, that this person's in no good mood even to spare a few minutes or a few words! wouldn't even matter if i'm being blasted for my actions. But is this "Damn you! I told you but you still did it." attitude needed? Agreed that it was not a very appropriate gesture, I shouldn't have done it., but justified it was! too... Is it so difficult even to talk back in spite of acceptance? Such respite for it really absolutely necessary? I am not to hold myself back if such a relationship's going into turmoil... And then, it's this person who's really showed me what i can.

Hallo (I still don't give your name out.) !!! I know u'll read this sometime someday... and soon enough. Write back as you used to... a while ago... talk as you talked... ever so cheerfully. It comforts me to relive those words on blue days. And yes, it's mostly for whatever came of your pieces, that this blog's still rolling!

Oh btw, remember i'd once told you gotcha meet someone else...? seems like this someone too has become very busy in an all 'new world' with some 'more important' people. And there's none that i'm really able to talk to. I've told either of you three (yes, the third one's busy with the bunch of flowers there...) all that I ever wanted to share... but now so much seems to be changing... and for some reason, I don't dare to ask of anything more :( I don't know how else to find my solace...

It's yours for you for me...

If you ever see yourself disturbed,

if ever your ways you see are perturbed,

It's not in the mirror to look at your face

but to go to the one who can be a solace.